There is no shortage of grace – a sermon for 28 July 2024

There lying in a kitchen cupboard they sit accusing me.

I’ve realised that the time has come to throw them all away because it won’t work properly anyway any more.

About a dozen small packets. Orange in colour. Each stamped with a best before date that is now about two years out of date anyway.

I must have struggled to get them in the first place. And yet they sit there unused.

My guess is that I won’t be the only person to have such a collection lying doing nothing in a cupboard.

It is my Emergency Pandemic Yeast Stash.

That’s right. We all had ways of coping with the first days of the pandemic a few years ago.

Some things were in short supply.

And as soon as you know that something is in short supply, that’s the thing you want most of all.

In the first days of the pandemic bread was in short supply – not because people had stopped making bread but because those who were worried took a couple more loaves.

No problem – I know how to make bread. I have a breadmaker. All I need is flour.

And then the flour started to run out – not because there wasn’t enough flour to feed everyone in the land but because everyone who could bake felt more reassured if it was in their own kitchen cupboard than in the shop down the road. And suddenly there was no flour to be had.

And once you’ve got the flour you need something to make it rise. And then the packets of yeast started to run out.

You know – there’s a whole encyclopaedic entry in Wikipedia all about what happened to home baking during the pandemic. It is one of those things that people are going to study in years to come.

People will write PhD’s on the spread of banana-bread recipes on the Southside of Glasgow during lockdown.

There will be studies done on the resurgence of sour dough as a metaphor for coping in difficult times.

But it is probably time to let my Emergency Pandemic Stash go the way of all flesh. It is out of date. And I need to throw it away.

I quite like making bread, but my little stash of old yeast tells me that I’ve not done it in quite a while. Scarcity made making bread seem incredibly important. But that time is past.

In this morning’s gospel there is also scarcity. The big story is the multiplication of loaves and fishes. Clearly there is a lack of food that the disciples ask Jesus to address. We’ll come onto that in a minute.

But not before noting that other things were scarce too.

Jesus had a large crown following him because they thought that he could give them something and what they were hoping for was more than an unexpected sandwich.

It is tempting to spiritualise it all and to suggest that they were looking for a spiritual teacher who spoke with authenticity and that perhaps there was a scarcity of people who did.

Well there’s pretty much always been a shortage of people who spoke with spiritual authenticity and anyway, the gospel writer is clear about why they were all pursuing him. They were following him because of the signs that he was doing for the sick.

In an age and a place devoid of modern universal healthcare it isn’t difficult to see why people were pursuing him.

If you go looking for commentary on this gospel passage, pretty soon you’ll get into a discussion about miracles.

Was the miracle of the multiplications of the loaves and the fishes like a magic trick or was it a social phenomenon?

Was it that there was suddenly more food than people had brought with them. Or was it that the sharing of the wee boy’s barley loaves and fishes prompted everyone present to share what they had.

Does it matter what kind of miracle a miracle is?

I’m not convinced that it does.

During the pandemic, despite all the chaos most supply chains held up and notwithstanding some shortages caused by people stashing away extra loaves and fishes in the freezer and you know, that feels like the miraculous to me.

Not everyone has enough in this country even though this country has enough.

I want to see the end to food poverty in my lifetime. Will there be enough people who desire that in public life to make it so?

Even the desire to make it so is evidence of miracle.

Do people need to chase religious leaders across the fields looking for healthcare in the land that we live in. No – and thank God they don’t.

Is the NHS perfect?

No.

Is the common, heartfelt and persistent desire to provide healthcare free at the point of need for everyone in this land a miracle? You bet.

We would live in the age of miracles if only we had the grace to recognise them all around us.

When a twelve-step group organises to help someone find a way back to sobriety there is miracle.

When musicians band together to provide music that is balm to the soul, there is miracle.

When artists provoke and surprise there is miracle.

When educators educate, when activists get the rest of us to take action, when human kindness makes us cry…

Does it every matter what kind of miracle a miracle is? Our God is a God of abundance anyway.

There is grace enough for thousands
Of new worlds as great as this;
There is room for fresh creations
In that upper room of bliss.

Ah yes, the upper room.

Many have come to the story of the loaves and fishes and seen in it the same shape as the meal in the upper room that happened on the last night of Jesus’s life – the same meal we share here. Jesus took the bread, broke it and gave thanks for it and distributed.

And grace and love broke out. Broke out not just in the room he was in but in every room and in every place that the Eucharist has ever been shared in.

Today is no different.

As the bread is shared today, join with Jesus in givng thanks. Give thanks for the miracles around you. They may be things that other people wouldn’t see as miracles at all. Indeed, it is very likely that they won’t be.

Life can be tough. Living isn’t always easy.

But rejoice – God is good. And meets us with enough for today. There is no shortage of grace.

In the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit. Amen

Why I’ll be Marching at Pride (2024)

I slipped into an unknown pub in Middle England to get out of the rain and have a pub lunch. It was welcoming and cosy. Steak and ale pie, since you ask.

The part of the pub I was sitting in was right next to the bar. A small snug. The kind of room where you can hear everyone else’s conversations though it wasn’t too busy. Just a group of fifty-something men in for their pies a table a few feet from me, right next to the bar. It wasn’t terribly busy and so our host behind the bar joined in with their conversation, which soon turned to the result of the General Election. Everyone was interested in what it might mean for them. (Bartenders round here want firm action on business rates, I can tell you.)

After a while, one of the pie-eaters suddenly said for all to hear, “Did you know that 61% of the new MPs are gay?”  The others at his table and the host at the bar expressed surprise that it should be as high as that. “It just isn’t right – not that number, that’s far too many of them. How have we become a country where 61% of our MPs are gay?”.

And I remained silent.

I remained silent because I was in a strange place and didn’t want to risk any unpleasantness.

Well no, I remained silent because homophobia stalks my world. I remained silent because I didn’t know how anything I might say might be taken. It probably wouldn’t have led to a punch in the face but the truth is, you never know.

The person making the claim about the number of gay MPs was wrong. Spectacularly wrong. I suspect he’d been told that 61 MPs were gay and had heard it as 61% and accepted that as being true. It was true in his inner world, a world in which the gays were getting above themselves. It was also a believable fact for those around him. They were surprised it was 61% and yes, that did seem a bit high. And yes, the gays were getting a bit above themselves.

I gather that a few more LGBT+ MPs exist than 61 – the number is about 66. That means that it is about 10% of the MPs in the House of Commons. LGBT+ people are sometimes estimated to account for about 10% of the population. So 60-odd members of parliament who fit that profile is something to be celebrated as a good example of representation. Once upon a time, every one of those MPs would have been subject to blackmail or worse. Once upon a time, every one of them would be silent.

Me remaining silent in the pub for 10 minutes and then, after finishing the pie, going off without a word, is minor when compared with the violence that many gay people face on a daily basis in other parts of the world.

Yet that incident played in my mind the rest of the day. I went over it again and again. Should I have spoken up and called out this nonsense? I can argue that both ways. But the thing that I care more about than putting someone right in a pub is that this nonsense claim inhabited my head for half a day. Not so much the absurdity of the suggestion that 61% of MPs were gay but the commonplace assumption, held by a group of apparently nice people in an agreeable country pub, that yes, the gays were getting above themselves. Too many in parliament. Too many in power.

Power that should, apparently, be exercised by the dominant majority. By people who are not like me.

How many gay MPs should we have anyway? And how many is too many?

It is these thought patterns which form the framework in which homophobia thrives.

Kelvin Holdsworth at Pride MarchI rejoice in the progress that we’ve made. But I’m impatient for more. I’ll carry my placard on Saturday at Pride and put a smile on my face. Blessed Are The Fabulous I’ll proclaim and I’ll mean it. But I’ll still be walking on streets in which it only feels safe for most same-sex couples to walk hand-in-hand for a couple of hours a year during Pride itself.

I’ll also be marching wearing a black suit, clerical shirt and a white clerical collar because of the thousands who will be there for whom that will be an extraordinary thing to witness and something that they can scarcely believe possible.

Yes, my own small corner of the world still has a lot of work to do. In my own diocese, the clergy asked clearly during the last Episcopal vacancy for intentional work to be done on racism, sexism and homophobia, recognising that these were all issues that were real in the diocese and that our attitudes to difference had played an ugly part in our attempts to try to choose a new bishop. A few years later, we are going into another Episcopal vacancy with none of that work done. And yes, what I experience as homophobia is deeply related to what my female colleagues experience and it is made out of the same basic material as the racist presumptions that black colleagues know well. And even since that time, anti-trans prejudice has grown and grown like an invasive new plant species. It poisons and diminishes all who taste its fruit.

There’s nothing new about that poison either. Lots of us know it all too well.

The easiest prejudice to counter is that which is most obvious. In-your-face discrimination is easy to point out if you are able to speak from a place of safety. Much harder is the bitter prejudice of the well meaning – that of those who couldn’t possibly be homophobic because they went to such a lovely wedding only last month, who can’t be sexist because isn’t it wonderful that we have lady vicars now and who couldn’t possibly be racist because that would be just unthinkable!

Prejudice is part of the psychological air we breathe. It forms part of who each of us are.

Think you don’t have any yourself?

Think again.

Think I don’t have it?

I wish.

How long will it be before it is unthinkable that women colleagues will ask whether another woman will ever be elected as a bishop due to accusations being made about the alleged behaviour of a bishop who happens to be a woman right now? How long before the qualifications of those who arrive in the church who happen to be black will be treated as being on a par with those who happen not to be? How long before I can simply sit and eat a pie?

For all these reasons and 10000 other micro and macro aggressions, I’ll be marching at Glasgow Pride on Saturday.

Anyone who shares the dream of a world where we are all treated equally and treated well is welcome to join me.

Blessed are the fabulous.

And blessed are the impatient too.